Theres a guy in my dorm and he’s chill. Plays guitar, smokes weed, like a 7 on the attractiveness scale, quite the cultural snob. Through a series of oddly occurring one on one chats we’ve become not… close… but confidential? it’s not like we’re really telling our deepest secrets but just thoughts about people or society or whatever that isn’t good dinner conversation. So somehow we were talking about dicks because this other guy walked in the room and he always mentions this hysterically large porn star thats clearly fake and once the kid left we were discussing how girls would actually be afraid of it, and in a previous conversation he’d said his dick was 6 inches (it actually made sense, story within a story that i won’t get into) and then we were talking and he said it again and then he asked me how big i was and I was like ‘oh wow’ and he brought up the whole WELL I JUST SAID IT and i was like ‘i don’t know, you have a point but, do you really care?’ and he said no and at this point i could FEEL my chest thumping with blood and i knew i was starting to shake but when I spoke I controlled my voice nicely and I debated it for a few seconds making a joke and then said ‘well, it’s bigger than yours’ ‘oh yeah?’ ‘quite a bit bigger.’ ‘really?’ ‘yeah, guess’ ‘8?’ ‘yeah, right around there’
and thank god the conversation turned gracefully and quickly from there but i proceeded to have a full on shaking fit and he was like ‘what is wrong with you it is not that cold’ and luckily i’m thin and blamed it on that but yeah that happened and i’ve never felt so much anxiety in my life saying something before and my body is still in shock and i can feel my digestive track shutting down all operations and preparing to shit out liquid because of all the adrenaline that was just pumping, shutting down my intestines and upping my heart rate to a zillion. hopefully thats one of those things that gets easier to say, cause while i was nervous about saying my body was doing another one of those ‘okay, really? this is out of hand how badly your reacting right now. just cut it out.’ moments. so yeah.
